Long time coming

I'm on the verge of breaking up with her.

Well. Her breaking up with me. This is about the 5th time she's mentioned breaking up.

I, however, have never once brought it up to her. I've thought about it! Way more this week then I ever have before! But I have never once said anything about "taking a break" or "breaking up".

I'm waiting..


Waiting..


It'll happen...

Laughing irl

"How's that brick wall you keep beating your head against feel? =P"

"I think I've almost broken through."

Cheers

Thanks, friends.

For making me feel like I'm not worth anything to you.

I want to darken my attire again and act like I'm back in high school where I don't give a fuck about anyone or anything.

All she is, is...

Oh sweet promise to the day I met you
An unguarded heart and I've hurt you
So I'm driving out to impartial sea
To let the waves overtake me they spill like rain

We'll kick and scream and fight this
As darkness turns to brightness it's hard now to

Turn it back somehow for just some...peace of mind

I can't do relationships.

"I don't even know who I am anymore."



I'm not sorry.


For what I do or have planned ahead of time.

People are stupid.

Just putting that out there.

See?

This is why I don't do relationships. They're hard to manage, they're hard to handle, it's hard to keep the partner pleased and happy. Especially when I don't even know what I'm saying is hurting them until it escalates out of control. Some things I know that I say will hurt, but others, when I'm just trying to have fun and thinking the other is having fun, I have no idea that I'm hurting the other.

I'm joking.
It's not really true.
I didn't mean to hurt you this time.

I'm sorry.

Goodgod.

Sometimes I hate how fucking clingy she gets.

I need to walk around my house to wake up.
How long will you take?
....IT'S AROUND MY HOUSE.