I am 21 and still living with my parents.

Plans for opening my own store are on the boarder of falling apart.

In all honesty I don't plan on keeping my store for a long time, only a couple years. However there's this "three year" deal where you don't even really start making money or being even and balanced until your store has been open for three years. So I think of that and figure "What's the point of even opening it in the first place?"

I have no job.

I have no money.

I have no idea what I'm ever going to do in my life.

I have no long-future goals.

I have no long-future ambitions.

I've been having thoughts of suicide thinking of all these worthless things that I am to be and think why bother with anything? But I damn well know better and I would never have the guts to try anything anyway.

I will just continue to be the mindless, numbing, dull thing that walks this planet... That's all I am. That's all I ever will be.