To be feminine, or myself?

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I just went a couple months as the girl I'm supposed to be..

Wear the makeup
Do the hair
Wear the clothes
Wear the shoes
Hold the purse
Wear the skirts

Maybe I could get attention. Maybe I could gain a boyfriend. But it would all be so damn uncomfortable and I would come home hating all of it every single god damn day and I don't think I would ever be able to handle it.

But the thought of what if lingers...